Thinking you should hate him?
Or knowing that you don’t?
Its been a long time since the first times.
The first time we met..
to the first time we kissed..
to our first fight..
our first good-bye..
our first tears..
to the last "I love you."
People say you never realize what you have until you lose it. In a way..they’re right.
But I never took you for granted because I knew any day I could wake up and you would be gone. I just hoped so much it wouldn’t be for a very long time.
But now I miss all those things I never really noticed..
Like how much I miss your hands holding mine..
I miss your smile..
No matter what was going wrong, all you had to do was give me that smile of yours and somehow i knew everything was going to be all right.
I hadnt seen that smile in forever.
I just keep hoping I’ll see it again so I can have that feeling that everything is going to be all right again.
I’m not all right. I’m anything but okay right now.
I just keep wondering if I’m ever on your mind.
Or if you ever miss my smile too.
I wonder if you ever wake up in the middle of the night thinking about coming back.
I miss you so much.
There’s nothing I can say that would ever make you understand just what you mean to me.
I want more than anything to see your smile again knowing it’s for me..
I need something to hang on to.
I need you..